I tried to fix it. I really did. But I'm defeated. I just can't do it and I hate admitting that. Oh, I'd better start from the beginning.

I have been really depressed for awhile. The commissions I was working on were in my new studio (got it just after my camera and I was so excited! so I got someone to help me set up to take more professional looking photos of it. But...)... the studio had a leak in a storm about a day after I got it and moved the work in. Yeah, a really big leak with at least two inches of water. So, the canvas board I was working on is ruined and the pictures are... no more. The canvas crumpled and the thick paint flaked off. The charcoal sketch is... smeared and washed mostly away. It made me so sad, but I tried to fix it. A lot of ways. A lot of my new work was messed up as well and that's just made me ill. I've been gone for a month or so to try and redo everything, but I can't. I have to admit defeat as far as that work and the commissions go.

So, I'll be sending everyone a note later today and I'm going to refund everyones money (of course).

I'm really, really sorry. I should have signed on devArt when it happened, but I was sure I could redo the paintings so I just... made a mistake. Or had a lapse in judgment. Perhaps both.

Well, I feel worse than I did. I hate giving up so much.